24/7 Paparazzi

Hi there.

So ok, the long weekend is almost over and so is my starvation. At last, I have a reason to severe ties with my bed and get up and do something meaningful with my life.

Actually, I've just been browsing the net for great ideas on Halloween costumes. Though, it's not like Im going to any Halloween party (never been to one because it's never in my radar). But anyway, it''s still fun wearing one to the cemetery while we visit the dead.

So anyways, a cynical thought suddenly popped into my head (it usually does). Like it or not, having a Halloween costume party will never be half as purposeful if we don't get to take pictures and post them on social media..for like every f**ing second. Admit it. Every event, every gathering, every activity that we do nowadays HAS to be documented!! And I was like, "oh my god I dont have a camera phone!" "And if I do have one, I would not have any internet access also!". "I guess I'll just have to use my camera and upload photos on my laptop". But how can I keep constant newsfeed if I could only upload the photos later when the party ends?" Urgh, shit here shit there..blah blah blah!

Can't we just have a normal party or gathering and not bother to keep freakin' strangers posted with our every move?! For all we know, we could be having Edward Cullen stalking us when we're asleep or something!

You'd probably say.."of course you can have a party without a smartphone and internet" or "get a grip, you're over-reacting and just bummed because you dont have an iPhone."

Well, three cheers for that. Maybe I am. But on a more general note, people like us who are not really that well-updated with techy gadgets because of "Miser Disease" may often end up furtively pitied or shoved to the side in awkward moments because we dont have 24/7 paparazzis to snap our every locomotion.

C'mon, why dont we just drop the phones, and just enjoy Halloween! Im sure, if I get to snag the coolest costume in town, many would think it would be put to waste if I dont take a snapshot of it and post it in FB.

My god. This is too much. I need to eat. K. Bye.

Not This Time

Hi.

So I've been thinking (I seem to be thinking much lately). Adult life really does weird stuffs to your personality. I swear Im not like this three years ago! damn!

Well anyway, amid all these struggles, one thing I learned is that this is my moment to do things at my own pace! I mean, really. I have been habitually rejecting offers and suggestions for CPD from my support group because I don't find them purposeful at all. I, myself, still have not yet decided on a career path to take. But all I really want is that when I do decide to continue my studies, I want it to be something I chose to learn because I WANT to learn it. Im through with obligations and reputations. I know I would not be as miserable as I am now with my life if I could just do things and decide on things without thinking about their impact on others.

I believe in PURPOSE. As Ive read once, LIVING is an OPTION because DEATH is our true DESTINATION. Feel the need to do a thing..that's my perspective.